I already feel like I was that man, yes I made the mistake of not taking her out enough. But I was a good father, I am a strong willed person, and driven. I know what I want but I know I have to pay my dues to get where I want to be professionally. Right now, I'm low and I dont know if it is because I read the success stories(which before today were helping) or if I just need to step off this bound for hell ride.

I have no intention of confronting her. I know it wont work. My glass of STFU has been drained and refilled these past 7 days. Since our last confrontation. Eric I just see her and all I want is to be able to touch her and hold her. It is killing me. My daughters 7th birthday was yesterday and during singing Happy B-day to you to her I almost cried because I got it in my head that it could be the last birthday she has with my wife and I. I tried faking being happy but she saw right through it and she asked me what was wrong but I just kept my mouth shut. But she knew something was wrong, and asked me what was wrong multiple times.

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I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.

Like:
D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30

"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."