Going straight forward...antlers 6th thread.

[antlers]

I think the few months that the legal struggle went on were worse than anything else. It is hard to look at a person who shared the most intimate parts of your life and see them as an adversary. And they know how to hit you below the belt because they know your weakness. The final day in the guardian ad litem's ofice was horifying. I was afraid of throwing up the entire time. I looked at a man I had loved with all my heart and saw such venom in his eyes, because I didn't back down and let him take my children, leave me destitute, and sail off into the sunset with the OW. I had the nerve to stand up for myself and my children and expect him to support the family he created then destroyed. How dare I!!! I remember my attorney hugging me, then I walked out, hands shaking, got in my car, drove around the block so X wouldn't see me, before I pulled over and cried.

Hello. Boy, you hit the nail on the head. She got a GAL involved also...she's trying to take our kids! This legal stuff is awful...all of it. We shared the most intimate parts of our lives, as you said, and now we're adversaries! I've dealt with almost nothing but pure venom from her since she left well over a year ago! And now that we're in this huge legal battle, her venom is even worse! She's even more pissed because I didn't just roll over and go along with whatever she wanted! She helped me create our family. I admit that I did some damage in the past...lots of it. But she destroyed it! I changed, and she knows it...although she wouldn't admit it. She says that I had already pushed her over the edge by the time I started making my changes. She told me that she didn't think it was possible to hate somebody as much as she hates me!
I'm sorry that you had to go through the crap that you did.