flowmom | need to commit to myself

[flowmom]

Passenger, I actually have learned a lot from flylady - I developed better routines and attitudes for housework and I've definitely made progress in that area. My main procrastination issue right now is with my professional consulting work (contract basis). I haven't been able to apply flylady to my consulting work, even though I understand using the timer, having a list, etc. I think what helped me get over the hump with housework is listening to things on my ipod that keep my internal dialogue at bay so that my mind is positively occupied. That allows me to "just do it". I can't really do that with my consulting work because I need to use my brain to do the work.

CG, the advice to grit my teeth and get started on the work is good advice. The thing is though, that I have done that many, many times. In order to address the out-of-control feelings that I have about my earning ability, I need to develop effective strategies and/or address the underlying issues so that I don't have to go through an internal war every time I try to get some work done. Until I develop self-mastery in that area, my self-esteem and income will continue to be suboptimal.

I do have a couple of strategies that I would like to try. I will try one today.