Help! I've been struggling for 2 years and don't

[Eunicetiger]

Well, mentally I'm really struggling at detaching, but physically I've kept my end of the bargain-- no attempts at hugs or kisses and no initiation of txts or phone calls for the last 10 days (since I started this LRT). I hope time will help with the mental part b/c I seriously have to make a concerned effort not to wrap my arms around her.

In other news, W came by to get the kids last nite and ate a little supper b4 asking me to stretch her scar on her neck (Im a physical therapist by trade). The last time she came over -- 2.5 weeks ago -- she wanted nothing to do with me and was rude. I guess my space and decreased smothersome self helped in that regard.

Then she came to the bedroom and I manipulated her upper, mid, and lower spine. She had on a dress and I noticed when I touched her legs to position her she got the "goosebumps.". Not sure if this is bc she liked the touch or was uncomfortable?????? Anyway, after that it was out the door with kids. Hugs, kisses, ILY's to them all except W.

On way to car, my SD8 starts crying (cause she wants to stay). My 2 SD's are treated as my own and I love them no less than my 2 biological children. Anyway, in the past I would hbe made a scene (see what ur doing to them, let them stay, y'all stay home please, beg, cry with the kids, etc). Instead, i just consoled her and helped her in the car and said it will b ok in a sincere manner and told her how much I loved her and will pick her up from school tomorrow. I tried as best I could to deflect the pressure off the W for causing it.

After that I started walking around the car and she rolls down the window. I kept my distance and said y'all have a goodnite and she said a fee little things then I just walked into the house. I was proud of myself as I could have easily veered from my goals on numerous occasions.

Also, it's the 2nd morning in a row she shows up here early to get things for work. Weird, cause she never did this in the past while I was here but I'm prolly just thinking about it too much. Over-analyzing I guess!