how do i keep my hope alive?

[talia]

HI TTA,
Sorry I've missed so much - I feel like you were a little alone this last week! I'm glad CB stopped by.

If it makes you feel any better.. I turned 28 in Dec and since the upstairs part of my renovation was done I decided to throw myself a party! It was fun - just small becuase I didn't invite anyone who was a "mutual" friend with H. I didn't need the drama. It was great and really fun. My H texted me the day before (the day of the party) to say "Happy Birthday Tomorrow"... Classy.

Your overwhelming feelings are totally normal - don't let them scare you. Embrace the suck as CB says. Its ok to feel everything you have describe... Just don't make your decisions based on those feelings. Definitely make another appt with IC - I'm a HUGE advocate of that... as you know. Its helped me a TON to talk through this and deal with my feelings. Its made the entire difference in how well I've handled it.....

Hang in there. Keep DBing... Wait.. see what happens...

(((TTA)))

T