thanks everyone... is it strange that i still feel like we could make it work if he only got out of his bubble?
we have been communicating for th epast 3 days, and this time its not only me texting calling and emailing. he still says he doesnt have feeling for me, but if i get upset or hand up he is calling or texting back. i know i know... i should not have any communication with him.
today he stopped by the house to pick up papers an i was working from home. i had every opportunity to be sweet and charming and my old nice self, and what starts out sweet ends up a bit tense. no screaming, but i cant help asking questions. i am no professional but he seems so scared, and like he had a nervous breakdown. he swears this is no OW and is still at his parents and is in school and will be busy studying for boards til the end of this summer. he seems completely stressed out and i cant help but thing that between the pregnancy, and his school program and having no financial means between the two of us that he is completely freaked out.
my heart breaks for him.
he wrote me today and said he did love me and was in love with me and when he started to feel something was missing between us that it was just a rough patch, his words exactly... "i thought that we were indestructable and it would get better or fix itself". he claims he loved me so much and yet he also said maybe i didnt love you the way love is supposed to be.
what does that mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if he thought we were indestructable why would he them destroy it all himself! why cant he see that we are still the same two people and he can fix things! i hear DR/DB words pop in my head that i need to back off and let him miss me or see what life is like without me...
i also feel that if he loved me and i truly think he did love me, the right way too, than he can get that back. problem is that i dont know if there is something i can do to make him see that.
how is it that he loved me enough in the fall to say to me that we should start a family, and then two months later get so freaked out that he had to leave.
should i just give up? do i continue DBing and wish for miracle and hope for a day when i can burn these D papers over a candle lit dinner?!?!?!?
