I have read just about every book in the bookstore, online, websites, posts here... sort of my personality that when I get involved in a topic I kind of immerse myself in learning about it. Doesn't really make anything change though. Makes me think about it too much, maybe, lol!!
What happens if I don't want this gift, to make me into a better person? I already went through my own personal struggles to be a better person in this second half of my life, and I did it without having affairs or breaking up my family. I liked me. I liked us. I liked my life. I don't want to date other men, search for someone new, work myself crazy and raise the kids on my own. I hate that they don't have the experience of growing up in the loving family that they had. Why would anyone do this?!!
