Well...it seems that he is more cognizant of financials than I thought (one more reason to stop trying to figure out what is going on in his head & DETACH!)...
Just got a very civil text "I see you moved your scholarship $. I think that's smart to do! It's not mine to touch! It's yours, you earned it [some more stuff]...I'm glad you took it out! It helps me gain a clearer financial perspective."
...will wonders never cease? All the worry about spewing...for naught!
Still WAH's over-spending as of late has me nervous. I just hope that the bills can be paid and we're able to have a civil end to NC at the end of the month.
In other news - I am still struggling with detaching, despite the NC. He is constantly on my mind and there is some core part of me imagining his return. This is so not logical, since he told me he was 100% sure that it was over a month ago - no hope/hopeless. he doesn't believe that I can change and he doesn't in love with me anymore. Heck, I'm not even sure that he likes me anymore! Still...isn't it: don't believe 100% of what they say???! Oh! DETACH!
So, I go far far away tomorrow until Tuesday (sigh). Hopefully the completely alien change of scenery and leaving the house-that-was-once-a-home will help some. All packed up...but still feeling empty inside on so many levels. Trying to get stronger, not crying, not talking so much about WAH to others...I AM 42 years old for goodness sake! Not a lost little girl! [wish I could say the same for WAH - 'girl' replaced by 'boy', of course ;)]
SH
Me 42 H39 M 10 years, T 12.75 years MLC began spring 2009 ILYBNILWY 1/18/10 WAS 2/5/10 EA revealed 3/6/10 EA ended (by her) 3/7/10 M - DOA...but working on getting disentangled.
