Who knows? You can drive yourself crazy with this stuff.
That's the truth G-man! But that is not my intent, at all. I realize that for me, it's just painful to see someone integrated into my d9's life or partially at least, so quickly, while I feel I am being less and less involved with d9's life now..
Please don't think I was being dismissive or making light of it with my last two sentences you quoted. Actually, that's something I used to say to myself quite often (and still do at times). I certainly understand and appreciate the pain you're feeling re: d9.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac