I am hanging in there... really enjoying the new post for us LBS, some really interesting info there. I like being able to see where I am, which ones Ive made it through..
Im REALLY struggling with moving away with the kids. Praying about it. I just don't know what to do. I worry so much about my D7, she has become a MESS in this whole thing, really affecting her actions, she is so insecure now, she repeats herself all the time, I love you, I love you, and when I see her this way, it breaks my heart...she fears I will leave her too....
This is the part that is so hard on me. It's funny, now that its been a few months, and I have made plenty of mistakes along the way, I feel detached a bit more and more... I am worried about my kids. I miss being a family...but not with THAT MAN....oh no way.....
So, it makes it a bit easier... sometimes when he is here with the children I find myself looking at him and thinking, why are you so crazy in your head about this Insane Man? I love him though...unconditionally....always will.
I think its the in the middle of it all.... nothing it done yet. D not final. Ive not moved or not moved. Its all still in the air and I am a mess....
