How do I act?

[Surviving03]

ok...so i REALLY messed up tonight.... I asked him if the last few days have made him feel any certain way about us... tried to see if it was helping our sitch at all, the fact that we have been doing so much together and last night seemed like normal married life... and he flat out said "No, its not changing my mind at all" I said is it helping shift ur mind at all... he said No..... he said he has made it clear that this is his decision and what not...so i asked ok so what have we been doing?? what was that?? he straight up told me in my eyes that I do not make him happy..... so i said so i should leave? and he said well I dont want you to leave, i enjoy your company......... wtf??!!! he said right now he feels D is the best thing but he doesnt want me to leave and then he feels different.... wtf???!!! he acted like even if we work on the issues that i do know of, that it wouldnt be enough "its bigger than that" etc.... so i got pissed and i told him that i am leaving... i dont know what he wants, he doesnt know what he wants... but i cant just sit here forever... and while he goes on little trips to see OW... so i blew up, yelled and left the house for 3 hours... needless to say he is sleeping on the couch tonight and we have not spoke... not sure where to go from here...