Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Who knows? You can drive yourself crazy with this stuff.

That's the truth G-man! But that is not my intent, at all. I realize that for me, it's just painful to see someone integrated into my d9's life or partially at least, so quickly, while I feel I am being less and less involved with d9's life now..

For me, now, I am ok that stbxw is with OM. I know that I will find someone at some point for myself, but would like to think I would not integrate them in d9's life so quickly, nor without informing my stbxw that I intended to do so.

I would not do that out of spite, or malice, I just feel that my d9's mom would deserve to know if someone in my life at a higher than friend level would be interacting with d9.

I mean we are not even divorced technically yet! Maybe that doesn't make a difference to d9 as we have been separated for 6 months now...

Guess I am being somewhat judgmental when I am trying not to be, so, again, nothing I can do about this, and I am dealing with the thoughts that are bringing on the sadness of this...