Sorry its been alittle bit--working and gal and taking care of the kids. i am stuck in the middle between two choices and yes they are choices-one stay in this marriage which is just title only because my wife and i are not living in the same place much else sleeping together. two-save up for a divorce(which i am trying to do) but if i want affection, someone to care about me love me or just plain want to be with me sexually-my wife has told me directly to go be with someone else because it wont be with her. She told me she is trying to change her life. Good for her but what about all of the pain and suffering i have gone through with her only to have that part of her life to be enjoyed ny someone else? it sucks.... I think this is one of those times that it doesnt matter what i do or dont do-it wont make a difference. She still goes out of town from time to time, still drinks, all of which is against her probation. I still feel like i am falling fast...
