The tunnel of darkness

[kjensen]

HI Peace,
I've tried talking to my H, but it never goes well since he is usually in a defensive/angry place with anything to do with the divorce.

I'm thinking of just asking him if his lawyer is sending him my lawyer's emails(as mine is doing)so he can see where the conversation is heading...

H unfriended me on facebook sometime in the last few days. When I figured out that I had one less friend and who it was, it hurt, so I know I'm not fully detached. This is the anniversary week of us meeting and going on our first date 22 years ago. The man who has said he would always be my friend can't even be my friend on facebook!

Its so stupid that these trivial things could hurt so much. It would be so much eaasier just to believe he is an evil person bent on hurting me..but I know he isn't evil. I don't see him hurting so its hard for me to be compassionate. It feels like he just wants my money and assets and to cut me out of his life forever.

Part of me wants to let him know that his 'unfriending' me hurt. I want him to know his actions affect(and often hurt) me. I have no hope of this marriage being salvaged. Why would I want to be married to someone whose actions hurt me, hurt the children and show no empathy or care? I guess I'll just sit with these feelings for awhile and see where that leads to.