How do I act?

[Surviving03]

Hey Cautious... well it wasnt that he didnt want me to go on the cruise alone, he knew all along I would never go alone, it seems mostly like he feels terrible that I wasnt going to be to go... but it also seemed like a glimmer of hope for us that he actually decided to go with me despite how he feels about us right now.

And the trip... he has not changed his mind... yet... not sure if he will but he has said a few times like "depending on how things go, maybe you can come".... but then said things like he really wants to go alone so he can get away from this for a little bit, but in the back of my mind, this is all really about going to see OW in vegas...but he has said that he isnt sure that he will be going to vegas, he has not made his mind up on that... so we shall see.... that will prob be the last straw for me...ok not prob, it WILL be... i cant deal with that...but anyways, he is sitting in the room, so i will come back later