how do i keep my hope alive?

[Surviving03]

i feel your pain TTA... i feel like me and my H are in the same boat.... he is confused, doesnt feel like its fair for me to wait around while he makes up his mind, but at the same time doesnt want to just say its over for sure even though he thinks it might be over for sure... and now I am in a state of confusion myself, I want to bust this D as well, but I struggle too with feeling hopeful, and then feeling like nothing is going to make this misery end 5 minutes later.... I feel like I have to make a decision to stop trying or to fully commit regardless of what he does... thats a hard choice to make. And we have only been married 2yrs as well. This roller coaster is tough... and I dont know how to keep my hope alive either.... every 5 minutes it literally changes.