My Story

[Wired]

@ Prairie
This forum is somewhat of my journal. I tried one at home for awhile and found myself beating myself up to the point I trashed the whole thing. Of course that was in the first week of my stitch so I should try it again.
As far as the "shell" Let me fill you in on a little background.When I was younger I was fairly chuncky little kid, not good in sports/gym class and always missed out on all the reindeer games. Well as I grew older I slimmed down a bit but fell into the wrong crowd of kids, they called us stoners back then. Of course they excepted me because I always seemed to have the best stuff. After awhile I began to see through this charade and another layer got added to my wall.

The clincher came in around when I was 18 years old and "thought" I had found my true love. (First real love) well needless to say I found out she slept with my best friend so I went to pick her up from work. When I got there she was outside crying and visibly upset, thats when she laid it on me that she had been raped walking to her car to get her change of clothes.
My whole world fell apart, I took her to her parents house and the look on her dads face at me like "This is all your fault".
So I did something very stupid, went home grabbed one of my pistols and went to the place that she had said she had seen him earlier. Unfortunately(fortunately?) the police had arrived first and where cornering the guy as I was walking up to him pulling my pistol out of my gym bag. One of the officers seen me so I get to ride down to the station right next to the guy that had just raped the love of my life. Well he gets off scot free and