It is the best thing right now to not have him at home. On Monday..with NC- I felt good all day. Yesterday afternoon..I found myself with that pit in my stomach again after the bombardment of emails and texts. I am trying to stay as dim as possible...not initiating phone calls, emails, or texts..and responding very little.

I don't think he is going to go back to his IC which really concerns me..but he has said he wanted to start MC next week. I am in no rush to start MC with him because I am not sure he will be fully there..because quite frankly..he is not fully there. But part of me would like to start. The MC was fantastic..and perhaps that even if he isn't going to IC..she may be able to help us and H at the same time..I don't know.

The MC told me that he was rebelling against his mother. I wasn't sure about that..but each day it seems more and more the case. The MC also thought it was good that he is directing the anger in the right place..away from the M and to his mother. It is really strange to see a grown man behave this way...leaving his mother with no other choice but to treat him like a child.

Grit- why are you reaching out to W? How long have you tried with NC? Perhaps she knows that at 'some point'..you are going to contact you so she isn't pursuing? I wish there was a 4th choice- All 3 of the choices that you laid out aren't appealing. wink But I do realize that I have been trying choice #3..and will continue down this path for as long as possible

r- He absolutely refuses meds..H says "i would rather feel the way I feel than feel nothing at all"..but the exercise thing always did work in the past..well until he hurt his legs. He would go into a deep funk whenever his legs started giving him problems. He is back at the gym which is great...it gives him something to do after work instead of going home and drinking. (his words). I don't know how much he is drinking these days..he was always the type of guy to have a glass or two of wine each day..but I think he switched over to scotch..and according to our credit card statement..he is hitting the liquor store quite often. Self medicating.