Husband left me 3 months pregnant...

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Babydoll,
No, there are no words to describe it. It's HELL. But the pain WILL subside and it WILL get easier. I know it's hard ot believe right now. You have taken a big blow and you are in shock. What he's done IS SHOCKING. Like Newmama said, he's looking for excuses to escape, he found one (your two weeks of silence, I remember) and he tried it on for size. He is doing all he can to avoid the work that long term relationships require. He's not got the guts to be there for the long haul. OW or not, he IS AFRAID, in my opinion.

You need to grieve, you need to go through the pain. It's part of healing. But when you see a little ray of relief from that pain, take it. You must take every opportunity to pick yourself up of the floor. Remove yourself from his drama and his mess. They call it "protection phase" around here.

Read, read, read as many of the other posts on this site as you can and learn what you can from the stories of other people in your situation, or coping with similar things. Don't take on all the advice, but see if anything resonnates with your situation and take notes, notes, notes. Over time, you will start to see what applies to you, what doesn't. Re-read DR.

Going into NC, protection phase is important for your own sanity. Have an intermediary be the go between you and him until you are detached enough to deal with your H. Stand back and look at things from a 360degree perspective. Don't let your feelings tell you what to do/how to deal with this. Act in a way which reflects your values and beliefs. This requires that detachement I was talking about. And you need to give yourself a few weeks I'd say to achieve it, but you can do it! And if you backslide, don't worry. Persist. One little backslide or slip up in not going to change things in the bigger scheme.

Make him realise what he is going to lose by WALKING AWAY FROM HIM.
Your email to him about wanting to keep the marriage was a good one, but you need to tell him you wont put up with his mess anymore, and so you are removing yourself completely from him. You can tell him you will contact him via email, or sms, (or phone if you want but you sound too upset right now to be exposed to this) - or perhaps better, an intermediary, like your sister or a good friend - about financial matters and the baby.
Have you read the protection phase letters on this site?
I'll try find you one and post it in.

BIG HUGS.