Your w sounds like mine. Stubborn. I can appreciate how tough the no contact is. The pro's will tell you it's a must. I feel for you because I am the same. Hang in there and robx will tell you to be confident and cool and collected.
M 43 W 43 S15 S 12 D 10 ILYBNILWY ( Dec 2009) Sleeping separate rooms April 8 2010. Sep as of 07/14/2010 W moving out 07/31/2010 No OM confirmed ( yet)