I think there's enough passion in that dept that disdain isn't the problem. It was in the past. Maybe this is the past creeping up, but it seems like every screw-up related to attraction = separation or divorce for her.

I just don't get it. Five months ago, I would've sworn, honestly, that I wasn't attracted to her (just to having sex), and that I didn't love her. I didn't go around saying that, although she may have felt either.

I admitted to her both issues during the D. RV reminds us we are rebuilding, not repairing.

But now, I feel love and attraction. How in the world can I make either of these grow faster by choice? I'm chosing them to grow, doing things to promote them. But I'm not alone in this.

So I know I need to do more to improve things. Its hard to do when I'm told or feel failure from each eggshell I crush unintended.

(Thanks for your ideas, Coach~)

Last edited by Onthemountaintop; 03/24/10 02:18 AM.