Help! I've been struggling for 2 years and don't

[Eunicetiger]

UPDATE:
I spoke to the WAW today before and after the tball game and I was able to take my SD9 for an hour or so before the W came by to pick her up tonight. I kept the conversations light. We laughed and discussed a few things about me getting to keep the kids on my birthday Thursday. Nothing heavy at all. She looked awesome and we haven't been intimate in about 2 months so I think I coulda taken her right there on the field (Haha.....well, maybe not).

I thought it went really well. I hugged and kissed the kids bye both times but never even attempted to hug or kiss her. I kept my distance but did just give her a light touch on the hand when I was speaking about something we were laughing about. I hope I didn't do wrong, but she didn't act like it was bad or try to pull away or anything. I so wanted to ask her to have coffee tomorrow am, but I am trying to follow these guidelines. I know she would have come, but I will follow what the experts say anyway.

Man, it was hard to watch her drive off! But I didn't even go to her side of the car to tell her bye. I just lolly-gagged with the kiddos and everybody was cracking up. It was so nice to see so many smiles on everyone's faces.

Next move: keep this up with the NC or do I attempt to mention a light breakfast one day this week? I assume NC but just wondering at what point do I do anything......or do I wait (even if it takes months) for her to ask me?

Very proud of myself tonight. It was really hard, but I did it!