Sorry guys, computer is back up and running...yes CB, I had to go texty chat b/c it was my cellular...ugh, I hate it too.
Cautious- yes, I in a moment of weakness texte OM- that W had not made up her minad as to what she wants and that he's effecting the outcome of our M...
Naturally the response I get is W dead set on D.
She popped over while I was here...I figured it was the best time for closure-
W loves OM, might be in love, says it feels like it W is having sex w/ OM W has no guilt for what she's doing
And that's all she wrote...no respect for W though she says that she does respect me for standing up for the M- just that she wanted no part of it anymore- b/c "there was no PASSION"
Whatever...
I feel surprisingly good...a bit disgusted and sure my ego is bruised...I have a love for her despite this...I will NOT expect a recanting nor apology from her, but it would be nice one day just to know that she maybe cared at one point and that she indeed has a soul or conscience...I'm sure its there beneath the fog.
I feel free- especially of guilt...I would feel better if I had done no wrong in the R, saly I am human and I did many things wrong- I wish I could take them back...I believe no passion is a cop-out- especially when there are MANY factors that lead to that- honesty, communication, shared experience, and of course attraction and love (but in love not necessary).
W gave up, she can sleep in her bed...I hold no grudges but will not include her nor wish to be included in her life until I see tears, remorse, and a genuine appology- not for her feelings but for disregard and disrespect.
Until then, I GAL by seeing some movies this week, researching nursing schools, golf this weekend, P90X, time w/ my dog, and watching the fight Fri night w/ some friends...
