Praying for you, hun. Ignore the calls. Ignore the texts. It's not worth it to have the last word. All you get is more reason for her to argue with you.
You're doing so well. Doing great things for yourself, which is the only person you have obligation to right now.
Me: 26 Ex: 27 Son: 5
Divorced: 3/2010 Each day is another opportunity to do it right.
My thoughts are with you. I know how hard it is. Try to let the anger go first. Think of a word that's happy and when you feel that anger or the urge to contact W say the word until the thought goes away. All this emotion is triggered by thoughts so control your thoughts.
Try it. It works for me. Sometimes I am so pissed I can't remember my word.
Grit
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
Agree with True - try not to let the anger get the best of you. You've been a class act buddy a class act. You have learned from your mistakes - now just do not repeat them. You will find happiness dude - I'm sure of it. Keep working on you man.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
so nc hasnt been great. i drpd off stuff wed night. she contactd me abt other stuff and tld me she didnt have her phone on her wed...yet she replied to my text letn her kno i was makn the drop...wtf. she told me shes confused...i cntcd om and explained what w said and that hes effectng the outcome of the m. i let w kno what i did so as to not b undrhanded or sneaky...so now nc is continued. reading nuts and not just friends...tonight i gal by havn dinnr w/ a friend and watchn a movie. tx for chekn in and the kind words
Sorry guys, computer is back up and running...yes CB, I had to go texty chat b/c it was my cellular...ugh, I hate it too.
Cautious- yes, I in a moment of weakness texte OM- that W had not made up her minad as to what she wants and that he's effecting the outcome of our M...
Naturally the response I get is W dead set on D.
She popped over while I was here...I figured it was the best time for closure-
W loves OM, might be in love, says it feels like it W is having sex w/ OM W has no guilt for what she's doing
And that's all she wrote...no respect for W though she says that she does respect me for standing up for the M- just that she wanted no part of it anymore- b/c "there was no PASSION"
Whatever...
I feel surprisingly good...a bit disgusted and sure my ego is bruised...I have a love for her despite this...I will NOT expect a recanting nor apology from her, but it would be nice one day just to know that she maybe cared at one point and that she indeed has a soul or conscience...I'm sure its there beneath the fog.
I feel free- especially of guilt...I would feel better if I had done no wrong in the R, saly I am human and I did many things wrong- I wish I could take them back...I believe no passion is a cop-out- especially when there are MANY factors that lead to that- honesty, communication, shared experience, and of course attraction and love (but in love not necessary).
W gave up, she can sleep in her bed...I hold no grudges but will not include her nor wish to be included in her life until I see tears, remorse, and a genuine appology- not for her feelings but for disregard and disrespect.
Until then, I GAL by seeing some movies this week, researching nursing schools, golf this weekend, P90X, time w/ my dog, and watching the fight Fri night w/ some friends...
