flowmom | need to commit to myself

[alice444]

I like 1 and 4 (which I will borrow myself) for sure. Fear holds me/us back so much. How much would we do that we're not doing now if we had no fear? A lot. I wish I could adopt a Buddist attitude and let go of all of my attachments and dissolve the fear and worry that comes with being attached. I don't know how one does that.

A different perspective on the solitary-ness (tho I think it's good both to spend time with yourself and with others)- it seems to me like you do/have done a lot for and with your family- a lot of people to support and nurture. If you haven't done much just for Flo or just with yourself in the past, I think some peaceful alone time is very healthy, as long as you don't isolate yourself (it doesn't sound like you are). Some people I know don't even know what they would do with themselves if they were alone for a moment, and I think it's good to get ok with being solitary sometimes and finding out how that feels. I feel sorry for those idiots I see at the gym and elsewhere who can't even get off their cell phones and need to talk or be with someone else 24/7.

Do you have a yard or patio? I myself have found gardening very therapeutic. Flowers can get expensive, but you don't have to buy a lot- or you could even plant just seeds. Getting my hands in the dirt and sweating outside has brought me a lot of peace.

I hope the ADs kick in soon, but it will probably take several weeks- you're in good company there, sister, and while they don't solve problems, if they work they can at least help you get to a point where you're thinking more clearly and better able to deal with what life throws at you.

take care of yourself-