Another roll in the hay scheduled for noon tomorrow. I feel like I'm the OM. We have to keep sneaking around. I'm not letting my emotions get the best of me, but I can't help to think all the sex lately has to mean something to her. I know live in the moment. Don't try to read her mind. Better with me than someone else.
marriedCrazy, I hear ya. Tread carefully. Believe me I am.
Maybe I should tell her no this time. Really make her want it, although it seams she wants it all the time. She even made the comment she doesn't know why she is so horny lately. Gucci, what do you think?
This whole stich is playing out exactly the same as last year. Same time frame, time of year, sex all the time, people involved.....Come to think of it nearly every year I've known her we have some problem that pops up starting in the winter and ending in late spring early summer. We live in Minnesota, possible winter depression?
W texted yesterday after the D paper conversation, she said she would stop bothering me (in reference to all the communication lately). I told her "SHE doesn't bother ME". In my mind I was referring to the sitch and the D she wants bothering me, but I left that up to her to figure out. She has said this before when she first told me about filing for D. She said then all communication should go through lawyers. Both times it lasted less than an hour. The last time she sent a text saying she will always love me and care for me.
Am I making it too easy for her? I'm still following all the no contact rules. I'm doing everything to stay mysterious, cool, confident....
It doesn't feel like she is pursuing me. Maybe I can't see it though. What do you guys think?
I expect D papers by Friday according to what she told me. She also said that last week and nothing happened. I'm hoping because I told her to have me served it may make her rethink things. I'm not worried about getting them, just curious if she will go though it.
So let me get this straight. She wants to D you, yet you have sex. What's up with that? She sounds like a guy.
When my W said she was done 2 years ago, that's pretty much when our sex life died too.
I think she has an emotional attachment to you still. It's just that her mind is telling her to leave. It doesn't seem like her actions are matching her words.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
All the time the last 2 weeks or so. I would love to know what is going on with her. I don't dare ask.
Some of it may come from jealousy. She doesn't want me to be with anyone else while we are still M (she's a hypocrite, OM). She has said if I wanted to have a girl friend I could do what I wanted. She says she has heard rumors of me getting some attention from the a few ladies. That was the day she came over to get the rest of her cloths. It was also the first time since she left we got busy. It was all I could do to keep her off me. You know the look they have.
Her mind is influenced by her friends and outsiders. I agree her actions don't match the words. I would like to know how to make her words match her actions.
Just keepin' it real my brother!!! Don't want to worry you; but letting you know that this could be the reason that the words don't match actions.
It's entirely possible he won't do anything until she's divorced. Maybe he got spooked. Anyway, wrap it up if you're gonna play; cause I know it's hard to not play
Well her monthly friend has arrived. She called and asked if I would like to go to lunch with her instead. This is a good thing I think. Some time together that is not sexual. Now I need to figure where to take her.
She's on the pill, didn't think you ovulated on that. As a matter of fact yes she does, however she wanted it before she turned 30. She turns 30 in July.
She was horney again during lunch. Nothing happened I only get an hour for lunch. We joked about the bill, I said you asked me out you should pay for the whole thing. Her reply this is just a friendly lunchen. Or something like that. I just laughed it off and said what ever helps you sleep at night.
On my way back to work she sent me a text telling me how horney she is.... I think I'm goign to cut her off and see how she responds. D papers in a day or two, her time of the month. I'm not going to be in the mood for a while anyway.
