Digging through some stuff last night, and happened upon the first gift my wife ever gave me when we first started dating. Now those wonderful times are all I can think about, all day long. This is soul crushing sometimes. If this is a roller coaster, today I'm at the bottom.
Tomorrow we're having a talk about the house, dogs, etc. I feel like showing her the gift and asking her if she remembers it, and tell her this doesn't have to be the end - we can still rewrite it, but if she truly wants to leave me that I want a divorce filed within 30 days. I know this is pressuring and putting a deadline on things won't help, but at worst I can get closure to move on with my life. I plan on sleeping on it and looking at things with a clearer head tomorrow (I didn't sleep well last night).
