i'm planning my 30th birthday party...kinda weird to not invite the man i'm married to. i wonder if he'll even do anything, but i can't worry about that or i'll go nuts. i'm having a mad men party at my new apartment and inviting some old friends and some new ones i made on my service trip, too. i'm excited and i know it will be fun, but i'm also dreading the idea of celebrating in the midst of everything that's going on.

i guess i just never thought i'd be planning my 30th birthday and a possible D at the same time.


Me30 H29
M2.5 T5
H moved out 1/23/2010
H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010
...feeling hopeless