Sunday now comes. Get up, things were good at the start then wheels fell off. I of course was encouraged by the postive moments of the day before that I tried to talk to her a bit on us. We were in the my garage and we chatted a bit and she came to me to hug me. I asked her, was that a pitty hug or a hug that you meant. She said a bit of both... Funny, I said.. Its so hard to detach.
We discussed banking and the financial stuff. What to do. She then shows me the spread sheet she created on how to split the bills. I was devestated. I was pushing for this becasue I thought this would scare her and rock her world a bit. Nope... not the way I thought. She said what do you think, I told her that I have to review this a bit and I would let her know. The rest of the day was sour.
I am going to fast forward to the night. Friends call. My buddy and his wife want to come over. My buddy knows a bit whats going on, but not his w and my W doenst know I have told him anything. It was great. We got along fine. They leave, I tell my W, " now that was nice" she agreed. I tell her that we can have all that. The frieds etc. I know its pursuing. I tell her that its her decision.
This is the kicker for me. W tells me that she has been thinking of alot of things. Alot of the stuff I say she tells me that I am right. I applaude that statment, but she tells me right away that she will not elaborate on what she means. I feel like she is 2 different people. Earlier on in the conversation I questioned her about the OM from work. She denies everything and her story is consistant. I check FB, her person page, email, and blackberry. I cannot find anything. She is too smart and deletes everything I am sure.
Ok, so beleive it or not, our conversation ended really good and we went to bed together. Of course, her on her side and me on mine. Here is something I cant get my head around. Why is it that somedays she will kiss me before she goes to work, and somedays no. WTF... I know there is lots of info here and probably confused some of you. I guess I should post more often so that the situation is more current.
M 43 W 43 S15 S 12 D 10 ILYBNILWY ( Dec 2009) Sleeping separate rooms April 8 2010. Sep as of 07/14/2010 W moving out 07/31/2010 No OM confirmed ( yet)