1. There are so many things I want to say to STBXW. Like how we're strong together, how things are easier to manage when we live together and most importantly how our DD's future looks so different to me if we don't stay together. I think of all the stories I've read about kids having problems because they came from a 'borken' house. I don't even have to look too far, my wife's dad left her mom when she was just 4 and she hasn't forgiven her dad to this day. Now I feel like she's doing what her dad did...even though she's not abandoning DD it's still hurtful to her. Last night when DD called me we talked for a bit and then DD said 'Daddy can I come visit you tomorrow?" I told her sure. How can I say no? but then I heard STBXW in the background and DD said "Daddy, mommy said, we'll think about it". I told her OK, if she wants to she can call me anytime and I'll definitely see her in two days.
2. There are so many things I want to tell her like...how could she be so self centered, how could she just pick up and leave whenever the heck she pleases like it's some kind of a joke? How does she expect leaving me or divorcing me is going to make her happy. I want to tell her divorce is just a piece of paper...exactly like how she perceives our marriage. Happiness comes from the inside not from someone else. Sure someone else can help nurture it.
3. How can she not be grateful for all the things we did together? Why does she only focuses on the bad memories of arguing and fighting (that I can't even remember but she took notes with dates and times) and not all the good memories we had together. What about all the vacations, what about all the times we hung out and did things together, what about when we helped eachother in every possible way. What about when I put her before my own needs (cars, financially helping her, toys/gadgets for her). Always thinking about how to surprise her with something nice that she needs/wants/would-like etc.
4. Ugh, I'm angry because I feel like an idiot and sad because this was my soul-mate.
OK I backslid today but I think I need to let myself express my feelings so I can see things more clearly.
Last edited by StupidRomeo; 03/23/1003:45 PM.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
