Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Hard to believe that it's been 13 days since my last post on my thread. I have been busy with 'life' and spending time doing things, and work, vs staying on the board for longer times.

Miss some of you all though, so stopping back in once in a while to check in on you, and see how things are going.

I am finding as time passes, I am doing better, and stbxw is less and less in my thoughts. Sleeping better, working on me, doing things I want to do, working on myself etc.

A long way to go, but making progress.

At times things come up, and they set you back. I spent the first weekend without d9 this past weekend due to scheduled trip that I had planned for me over the weekend. That will be 13 days of time that I have not seen d9 when I pick her up next weekend. This brings up.
- Feelings of pain, as my d9 is taken out of my daily life by the actions of others, and there is nothing you can do about it
- Feelings of guilt for not being there because of the above for d9
- Feeling that d9 is slipping out of my life..

I call her every night, and a couple of times already she has sighed before getting on the phone, as I know she doesn't always want to talk at times.

All these things above are ok and normal to think about, so just marking them down, as other people will have them or will be having them as well. I accept that, and will work through it.

I am doing well, and happy, and have been busy, so don't want the above journaling to get you all thinking I am down! I am looking forward to this coming spring and summer, and some warmer weather!