All this advice is great, and I hope I can remeber it and practice it. I know this is about me and the girls now. It still doesn't make it any easier, but I know my focus needs to shift.
I wish things weren't the way they are, but they are and I have to accept it. This woman has hurt me like no other the past few months, yet I still hope for a future together. Hopefully that doesn't make me weak. I just value my M, and still intend for it to be forever. However, she would have to make changes herself because the person she is now isn't my W.
I now have my itenerary in hand and know exactly when I'm getting home. It really makes me nervous, and I'm sure when I tell her it will have the same effect.
meghunny, I'm not sure where you are in Turkey, but I'll be passing through Adana on my return home. I hope you are doing well in your sitch.
Married 18 Me 39 W 37 D 15 D 5 Divorce Filed 8 April 2010 Beginning of Reconcile 8 Sept