I keep wanting to. I told her I envision the day as one with a candle lit dinner. We're still on an emotional rollercoaster, though. Some days I feel so empowered by my new love. Other days, her problem fully forgiving the past and sharing her emotions with me make me too nervous to act. For example, since RV, she's asked about us separating twice, and talked about us having too many problems once. Another example is that our D mediator (5 weeks late) called back to arrange an appointment to start planning for an end. After RV, I can't imagine going, but she was OK to make an appt. All that in three weeks!
I guess it is unfair, but I'm apprehensive about making any changes. Your point is very valid - I keep running that through for me, too. I want to move ahead knowing there are no limits.
I'm really not sure why I am not giving this my full effort and risk.
