Moving Foward

[Kemper]

Well I haven't been on the board for some time mainly because I needed a break and also because there wasn't much to report.

My W and boys moved out a little over a week ago. I miss the little guys so much but at least they were excited to go stay at a new place and don't fully understand what is happening.

I feel like I am cycling through all the emotions all over again now that they have moved out. The main emotion that keeps coming up is anger towards my W. I will state again that I wasn't perfect in our marriage but I was at least willing to work on it.

I called W tonight to see when she was going to be finished getting everything out of the house. There are still odds and ends around and I am tired of feeling like I still share the house with another person.

Later tonight I received an email with some key dates for the boys and their mothers morning out program. Additionally, she mentioned that she might take the boys to a neighborhood Easter party that it appears the hostess invited us both to. She mentioned that she is sure the boys would like to see me then. I am not sure if we were both invited on purpose as the hostess knows our situation and also knows that I wouldn't have the boys that weekend. My W also mentioned taking the boys to church on Easter Sunday if I wanted to go.

WTF? I am holding back on sending a response because I know if I respond the only thing I am going to say is that we aren't a family anymore and I don't feel like pretending to be one. Do I want to see my boys, yes. Do I want them to get the wrong message, no. Do I want myself to get the wrong message, no.

As of now my plan is to skip both the Easter party and church.