This will be my last update in Infidelity. I'm trying to decide if I'll pick up my Surviving thread or not.
But baby daddy and I passed at the W's house on Saturday. He wouldn't even look at me. His father nodded Hi though. I hear he's a real nice man who's W also put him through the ringer for 7 years; but they're still together.
But I digress..W decided that she wouldn't be transparent. She would not live a life that way. That this was the best. I can't stop her and, really, I do believe it's better for my own health and sanity. I've learned a lot about myself in this process. DB has shown me what I NEED to be a MAN and happy with myself. I don't have to be codependent and will NOT be in my next R; whenever that my occur. It's time to take a breather from relationships and focus even more on ME. Church, the kids, and my male friends are now my focus.
I realize that I still have a lot of work to do...Why does a man, who has been cheated on multiple times, his W drinking to excess, lying, and having a kid from someone else; really want that woman in his life as his W? Something I really have to find out and let go of.
So the next part of my journey starts. I'm scared and excited at the same time. I have met some really wonderful people and have been enjoying life without my W. It's just sad that it will go down like this. I've prayed about it and the answer I get is, "Acknowledge your fear; but fear not, I will be taken care of."
