Originally Posted By: Mach1



NOT dwelling on your husband and his every move, is a start of that....



I don't do this. It must seem like I do, because I come here for help with this, but I don't dwell on it.

I know you aren't "against" me. I know that you are here to help me think and find the answers within myself, I am just stuck.


Your explanation of fear helps. I think I understand better. I will do my best to work on that within myself.

Kat - I know about soap, and I think it went down the drain a long time ago. I am beyond that. I've screwed that up already.

I'm trying to move forward, accept what D means to me (which I guess I don't fully get what that is yet for me.) I don't want to end up that bitter vindictive angry divorced b*&^(. I want to move forward with some sense of dignity. I don't want to be angry anymore. I don't want to be cold and uncommunicative---but I don't want to make THIS easy for my H.


Me 45
M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08
D 18, D 14, S 12