I still don't know about the divorce. I don't want to rush into anything I'll regret, but I know EXACTLY what you mean about the supercharged emotions. Every smile, every hug, every "call me if you need to talk" feels like something more. Trying to keep my emotions in check as much as possible, but more than anything I've just come to realize that there's more fish in the sea, and there will be a woman who I can again love and trust, sooner or later.
Ok, so you are getting there. Detaching in your head. The emotions will follow. THEN, waiting won't seem as difficult. Right now, you are in hurry to get out of this horrible situation and D is the only direction available to you, other than waiting to see what happens. I visualize it (this sucky limbo) as a car wash. I have had to take my hands off the wheel, put the car in neutral, foot off the gas and the brake, and focus on the light at the end of the tunnel. Letting go of the control is very hard, but i know if I grab the wheel, or gas/brake, it will only slow things down and cause problems. So will getting out of the car before it is over. I do not want to wonder the rest of my life, what might have been.
You can D anytime. It won't end the pain you are in. It won't change the healing work you have to do. The rollercoaster Will slow down! No Contact with her will help that.
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