Oh (((((((Hope))))))), I am SO sorry- and want to shake or punch your H. I hate how he has treated you :-(. You shouldn't have to walk around in fear of him blowing up over a book that can be replaced- it's just money!
It is probably of little comfort, but please try to wrap yourself in a protective blanket and take care of yourself as much as possible. Stay busy and see if you can occupy your mind. Easier said than done, I know. Sending you a virtual hug.
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
