bright - you are right again. I have been trying to figure out how to break the pattern and do something different. (Are you sure you are in VA and not OH???? smile ) At least at this given moment at 2:55 PM EST on Monday March 22, 2010....I am doing nothing . I am always the one trying, talking, planning, thinking, etc. I readily admit that I have almost been obsessed with relationship stuff - talking about it, working on it, etc.

Now, I am putting forth as much effort as the other person involved - and right now that is none. I put options out on the table.


For me myself - I am planning to take a couple days off work in May (I am on an assignment at work where I can take time off, but it is highly preferred I wait until after a certain date) And that is only about a month away. I plan to clean and organize my house as a way to help in other areas of my life. Since I moved into my house- I've never felt like I used to, when I was married and in my other house - things were very orderly and most things had a place and I had a general schedule for cleaning. Ever since I moved in my house - everything feels disorganized and unkempt. If my downstairs was clean and presentable - things were thrown upstairs and stuffed away. Also in my current house - doors are often closed (because of the cats), but it gives a very dark feeling inside that I don't like.

*just as a general rambling that I may take on my thread - I don't like my house. For those who have been around a while may very well know. My house has issues (HA - just think of that article msinvisible about house=marriage LMFAO) (I know that BF and I aren't married, but I've learned that any long term relationship has many of the same principles as marriage).

Anyway - I liked my house when I moved in, but I went in very blind. I had an inspection, but I didn't know. OH the things I didn't know-If I only knew then what I know now-NOW I know that a freshly painted basement with dry-lock paint probably means moisture problems. I know now to look up, down, upsidedown and sideways at every knook, cranny, crevis, from floor to ceiling on every floor of the house. I know that "repaired by licensed professional" could very well mean some shmuck that says he's a handyman did the work and in the very near future the ceiling he repaired will be falling down (and he now denies touching). I also know what a structural/support beam should and shouldn't look like (shouldn't have a big crack with a little board screwed in next to it) Also an unapproved, untraceable addition to the house that was never signed off on by authorities - will likely come crashing down around you (literally)

Yes, the house had given me many many many lessons. Toilet replacement, basement waterproofing, wall/ceiling/cabinet replacement. Not to mention the joys of not using the upstairs tub for fear of ending up in the living room below. Not to mention the roof that will be required in the next couple years, or the countless other items on the repair list.
But alas, there are some possible sunnysides - as there are laws that force previous owners to disclose such problems and when they don't, the court systems will (hopefully) serve justice where it is due. (May 5) smile


Anyway - thanks for reading and hanging with me and keeping me company. (This next part is meant for those it applies to) I know how frustrated many of you are with me and the sitch with BF. I have no idea what will happen tonight, tomorrow, next week, next year. I would ask that you keep in mind that I do read everything here and I also ask that you keep in mind that this is 1 very small fraction out of a 24 hr day, a 168 hr week, a 720 hr month. The few moments I take to write, to vent, to rejoice - they are but a small window opening of my life, so I ask that you do not presume to know every detail about me and that you know what is best.

I very much appreciate all feedback, information, reviews & support that is offered.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.