Although my M is over, I will always wonder if there was one other thing I could have done...one less mistake made...one less backslide done....whether the family would still be intact. However, I truly doubt that this woman, STBXW, would have still made it the distance. FIB
I would encourage you not to wonder about things like this.
Keep moving forward.
Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.