i'm having a hard time keeping my head straight today. i'm sure you all know what that feels like. after my rough night last night, today i feel like someone needs to scrape my face off the floor.
i'm feeling a little lost and definitely very blue. got an email from him again this morning, saying how much he missed me and how much he was hurting, but that it was normal for us both to be hurting through this. he also said it cut him deeper every time he saw me, which would explain why he hasn't been more eager to see me lately. it just seems like such unecessary suffering for both of us. while i was away on my trip, he suggested seeing a MC when i got back. in the week and a half since then, it's almost like he's distanced himself even more and decided that he's just not worth the trouble.
i know i'm thinking too much about this and i need to focus on what i need and on learning to let go. detach, i know. i know what i SHOULD be doing right now, but my emotions have taken the reins from my rational brain.
not a fun place to be.
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless
