Lost - Yes I understand that she is hurt I do. I take responsibility for my actions; however, I do have a limit like I am sure she does. I crossed her limit and was told it was over. She crossed my limit and I reacted (poorly I might add). Do I wish I could have a do over - yes but I am human. It is not easy to lie next to someone who is with another man. Do I want a D - no. Am I done - no (snoderly you were correct). I just want honesty right now.
Have I made up for those lies? I suspect in her mind I have not and I wonder if I ever will. I sat here for the first EA and took responsibility for it. I can not stand for a second or third, or fourth. Have I made major changes in my life - yes. The changes that I need to make will take time. I have a very hard time sitting here while, chatting and trying to act like everything is fine when it is not. She is apparently in LOVE with someone else.
I will not confront OM - no reason to cause more pain. I will appologize for some of my language and my attitude but I will not appologize for this affair.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
