Sandi, I value your input and perspective on all things in my sitch. Believe me, I am sure I should have been the good guy and not have had anything to do with her. She was drunk and it made me mad. I have never been drunk in front of the kids, ever. She was gone for two days and told the kids she would be home by the time they got home from school. The asked several times when she would be back. When she did come home like that, the last thing I thought was that she would be horny and throw herself at me like some whore. That is what I thought, whore. Don't get me wrong, I love unbridled passion and married people don't have to "make love" every time they have sex. She caught me off guard with the whole thing. I'm not proud of myself, but I didn't cry and tell her how much I missed her and how much I missed us and all the crap I have done in the past when she showed some interest in having sex.
Anyway, the last week had been OK. She did initiate kisses good-bye and good-night pretty much every day. Had a good week end at home with the kids and she was in a good mood. She grilled some steaks Sat. nite and I made sure to tell her how good they were and that it was better than anything I could have made. All in all, a good week.
Then this morning: We got up and I got in the shower and she went in kitchen to make breakfast. When I got out and went in kitchen, all the kids were up and eating. She had made eggs and waffles. She asked if I was going to eat. I could tell by the tone of her voice that the alien was back. I said sure, it smells good, and walked over to the stove. The eggs were gone. I looked on the counter, nothing there either. She said she didn't make me anything because I don't always eat breakfast. I said that's fine, I'll make some eggs myself. She told me to eat her eggs, she wasn't hungry. No, I don't want them, back and forth....you get the idea. I did not make a big deal out of it, helped the kids get ready and stayed in a good mood. She didn't talk much the rest of the morning, gave me a kiss when I left for work.
SM, yes, the super is there. The last two months, she has came home right after the board meetings, and hasn't went out at all other than Tues. However, yesterday she said they have a meeting tonight that she "forgot" about. It's about an hour away and they are leaving school at 4:30. I didn't ask anytthing about it: who she was riding with, how late she would be, nothing. I don't think I reacted at all. Before I left this morning, she said who would be watching the kids tonite. I told her, OK and off I went. Just carried on as if she told me she was getting her hair done. At least, that's how I tried to act, and I think I did a good job. And really, I don't care too much anymore. I'm changing for me, right? Like I said, she hasn't gone out latley and that's a good thing. But the roller coaster is still there. I'm not reacting to her moods, just going with the flow and still feeling my way.
