flowmom | need to commit to myself

[flowmom]

I've thought about it and I think I can not react to his anger. I don't even think he would yell in this case. It's hard to explain but it's more like feeling as if I'm a bug under a pin when he's angry. Also, it would be huge ammunition for him to be telling himself "she hasn't changed, she hasn't changed". I guess if I'm honest with myself that's the part that I'm afraid of...that that would get the D ball rolling so that he could financially "protect" himself.