how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

i know you all will yell at me for not being more detached...

but i had a rough night. i had a lot of plans over the weekend, so my H and i never had time to meet up and/or talk on the phone. we had loose plans to talk last night, but of course my phone never rang and it bummed me out way more than it should have. i did get an email from him this morning, saying he was sorry he didn't call but that he stared at his phone all night and just never knew what to say. sigh. sometimes i feel like i'm doing so well and then there are days like this where i feel like i'm back at square one and the smallest little upset is enough to make me cry.

the weather was amazing this weekend and i wished so many times that my H and i were on a long motorcycle ride or at least enjoying the weather together. i know, i know. don't yell. i spent plenty of time with family and friends and i went for a long run on saturday through a sea of health care reform protestors. so that was fun. i'm just missing him so much and doing my best to GAL through it and focus on myself, but i guess some days it's just harder than others.

the sermon at church this weekend was titled "this too, shall pass." and i know it will and i know i have to be strong...but i think they should rewrite that line to say, "with time and probably a lot of pain and tears on your part, this too, shall pass."