It has been awhile since I have posted anything due to the fact I had been feeling pretty low. The usual feelings of anger, doubt, resentment, and insecurity were overpowering. However, yesterday was the first time in I can't remember how long, everthing felt just....right. It was so right on so many levels. It was a great day and we didn't even do anything extraordinary. And to top it off H and I actually ML for the first time since Oct. I am looking forward to more of these days and I can finally see some positive out comes of MC. MC was not what I expected but I know we would be where we are if we didn't go. H said he is getting a lot out of it. And I am working on being more consistent with parenting, listening, and showing more appreciation towards H. So for the moment, this roller coaster ride is on top.
