I am sorry but I really cannot continue to sleep in the same bed with someone who texting another man about "wipping away her wetness"....and "I love you" and "I am so happy you are in my life" - "you look so handsome today"...I am sorry but I have morals and standards. I tried to confront the last time and wanted the truth I recieved lies again. She is in a MLC - this I accept. What I cannot accept are the continue lies. I cannot accept that you come home late from work while I do everything in house. If another man were not involved I would be more apt to stick it out. This is the second affair and quite frankly she does not appear to be trying to work on her issues. I am simply a wallet right now. I am enabling her actions and she pretty much mocks me. Sometime enough is enough...She does not want this M - fine - then she can do what she needs to do. The confrontation was not pleasent this morning. I probably broke every DB rule in the book. Here is how it started...
At 4:30 AM, while she is getting ready to leave for work or probably go visit her OM.....
W - Eric I heard you last night M - You heard what me crying.
W - Yes - is your grandmother okay M - Why do you care
W - Why did you move out D from the bed M - Why don't you call Al and ask him
W - I told you nothing is going on. With a smirk... M - NO you can tell him that you want to wipe your wetness...that is what you can tell him. I am tired of your lies. You have lied to me again
W - Just like you did M - Go away justify your F*cking action why don't you.
W - Their you go getting pysco. You need to move your stuff out of the bed room M - No you need to move your stuff
W - You know you need to leave now M - No you need to leave
W - I told you it was over...I only had dinner with him M - You are a f*cking whore and a liar.
W - F up M - You are a liar - how about I call his wife right now - oh and call your job as well.
A very bad confrontation but I am done. I cannot do this no more. I cannot sit back while she is off with someone else. Do I love her - yes I do. Can this be repaired - yes it can. Do I believe it can be repaired with someone else in picture - no I do not. Do we need time away from each other - yes. Do I hurt - Yep - will I heal - Yep. I suspect a few 2x4's but I believe I had to confront I cannot keep sitting here and acting like everything is fine. So when she returns here will be my statement.
I have decided that I want a life without lies. I owe it to myself and my kids to not only live it but teach it to them. I will teach my kids honor, respect, truth and morals.
The recent lies that have been told are not benefical to the life I want to live and the example that I want to give my children.
As I promised I will not file for a D but I will defend myself if it is presented to me.
All - I do not plan to leave the house. I am tired of this. If she wants to destroy the family then thier is nothing that I can do to stop it but I will not sleep in the same bed with someone who claims to love another man. I am sorry.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
