Although I am trying hard to detach, days like today bring back all of the feelings of hurt, anger and frustration that there is nothing I can do to improve the current situation. I know in my heart that I am doing the right things and that I am striving to achieve the best for me & my kids in the long term. However, the fear & hurt in S12 eyes when he said he just wanted to be part of a family again ripped my heart out.
As I will now have limited contact with W it will be increasingly difficult to gauge what is happening about the A. there are only phone calls & occassional meetings over boys. Meanwhile W just seems to be making herself "happy playing house", which seems to me to be an effort to demonstrate that she is "moving on". I can only hope & pray that OMW is working the problem from the other end and keep waiting to see what will happen
Everything I have read or heard points towards the OM ending the A. but it is also clear that W intends to pursue the A. & believes she is Cinderella. The slowness of the whole process is killing me and causing a lot of self doubt over how I am playing this situation, particulalry the "loving" part of "lovingly detach" - how do I know I have the balance right and W does not just take the current actions as a signal the I do not care any more?
