flowmom | need to commit to myself

[Gardener]

Tulsa, except for the weekly daughter visits, every one of your statements

I'd like to join in with you flowmom, r22 and you too Gardener. I relate all too well with what you're going through.

I've been apart from my wife for a year and a half now. I have no desire to look or even imagine a life with someone else. The thought of being alone like this is frightening.

My wide and family gave me so much purpose. Now that they are gone, I find myself lost. I procrastinate even getting bills done.

The hardest part is getting out of bed. Luckily, my job is easy and pays decently well. I have really closed off from people over this time. Done alot of praying.

I am working on changing my thoughts though. I get my daughter each week and that helps. I visit my brother each week and I recently started back up a game night once a week.

I hope this helps but it's a long, painful process.

could have been written by me. I'm still there, mostly.

I am always amazed at the strength people here show by being able to walk away or pick themselves back up and live life again.

So am I. And you're one of them.