Too Late For Us?

[mrbt]

I am having a very hard time focusing today. I work from a home office and so I am alone most of the time. My wife has not signed the divorce papers yet. Her day off from work is Monday so I suspect this is the day she will visit her attorney. The anticipation of this is driving me crazy. I have things I need to get done for work but just cannot focus. I feel paralyzed.

[mrbt]

Its almost 3AM. Can't sleep. : (

[mrbt]

Had a sleepless night last night but somehow, by morning, a calmness came over me. Maybe my mind can only generate so much anxiety and I depleted my supply.

The divorce papers have my signature but not her's. My wife has Monday off from work. She has a counseling session in the morning and is free the remainder of the day. I am waiting to see if she signs the papers right away or hesitates.

We had dinner together last night and coffee together this morning. We talked a little this morning - nothing too heavy. It helped that I was feeling especially calm. She said she is afraid "to leave the nest" but has not changed her mind.

Yesterday I applied for a loan so that I can pay her (we own some land and I need to buy her share). I told her about the loan this morning.

The cage door is wide open. I am just waiting to see if what she will do.

[rr22]

She is making too much of D papers. With that level of ambivalence on her part, with or without papers, she could still come back to relationship. What a mess. You're going to need to detach and decide for yourself whether signautre on these papers means "it's over." Otherwise she might come bounding back again in six months. Or not. What a mess.

[mrbt]

rr22

For some reason when I read "what a mess" it made me laugh. Thank you saying it out loud. It is a mess isn't it?

mrbt

[rr22]

Yup. Sometimes you have to laugh so you don't cry with this crazy, crazy stuff.

[FindingMyVoice]

Hey mrbt, Just offering my support; my heart goes out to you. Keep taking care - trust in yourself. You'll get through this!

[mrbt]

Thanks PG. Thanks rr22.

Is today the day? Today is wife's day off from work. She has a counseling session this morning and is free for the remainder of the day. I am waiting to see if she signs the papers today. If she does, then how do I proceed from here?

mrbt.

[mrbt]

So lately, I find myself checking my wife's Facebook page just to make sure we are still married.

[FindingMyVoice]

Aww mrbt... that sucks. I feel for you. Can you make plans for the evening so you don't have to sit around alone, wondering?